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Discover how a winter yoga retreat in Iceland led to an unexpected encounter with the aurora borealis and profound personal healing.
When I planned my winter yoga retreat in Iceland, everyone asked: "Why not wait for summer's midnight sun?" My reasons were simple:
- The best northern lights viewing occurs during dark winter months
- I sought wisdom in Iceland's long nights
- The aurora borealis topped my travel bucket list
The Romans named these celestial lights after Aurora, goddess of dawn. After two years of personal darkness—losing both parents, my marriage, and a friend to suicide—I desperately needed my own new dawn.
To maximize my chances:
- Traveled during peak aurora season (December-February)
- Used the My Aurora Forecast app
- Chose a remote retreat location in Iceland's "auroral zone"
Key facts about aurora viewing:
- Completely unpredictable despite forecasts
- Requires dark, clear skies away from light pollution
- No guarantees—it's nature's magic
At our secluded ski lodge in Akureyri, surrounded by:
- Icelandic ponies
- Pristine waterfalls
- Endless snowfields
I learned profound lessons:
1. Darkness can't be erased—only light can transform it
2. Light appears in unexpected forms—laughter, friendship, resilience
3. Letting go brings revelation—the aurora appeared only after I surrendered expectations
On our final nights:
- Temperature: -15°C (5°F)
- Aurora activity: KP 4 (moderate)
- Viewing conditions: Perfectly clear
At midnight, shouts woke us: "The lights are here!" We rushed outside to see:
- Neon green ribbons dancing across the sky
- Ethereal waves of light
- What felt like my mother's spirit in the celestial display
This journey taught me:
- Inner light matters most—external wonders can't heal internal darkness
- Joy appears unexpectedly—in frozen yoga poses and snowshoe tumbles
- Magic happens when we stop forcing it—the aurora came when I stopped chasing it
As I returned home, I realized: the light I sought in Iceland's skies had been within me all along. Sometimes we need to travel far to rediscover what was nearby.
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